Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Part of My Story

I don't remember exactly when... but it must have either been my sixth grade year or the summer before seventh grade... but my dad offered to pay me to memorize poems.

Yeah, that's right. Memorize poems. Most kids get an allowance...

We didn't get an allowance in our house growing up. But that summer... I got paid to memorize poems.

The thing is... my dad has always been a lover of all things written. My sister says it like this... that you could always tell what the focus was in our house by the vast amount of books and bookshelves we had vs. the one little television.

So that summer I memorized two poems. The first was The Village Blacksmith by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow and the second was The Ride of Paul Revere also by Longfellow. I don't remember how long it took me to memorize the poems and I don't remember how much I got paid. But I do remember this...

My seventh grade year my English class was taught by two teachers who joined their classes together. They were the coolest teachers at Keithley Middle School in Tacoma Washington. Mr Ice and Mr Mondloch.

One day, during class we were separated into two groups... teams. We were being asked questions from Brain Quest cards and getting points for our team for correct answers. All of a sudden Mr. Ice gets to a question that he didn't think anyone in the class would know and he said that whoever could answer it correctly would get 50 bonus points. FIFTY! Then he reads the question and I can still remember this like it was yesterday. He's looking at the card and he says "In a poem by Henry Longfellow, who stands under a chestnut tree?" Of course, with 50 bonus points on the table, almost every hand in the class went up. Everyone wanted at least a guess at who it was. Some wise crack said Donald Duck. My little seventh grade hand went up in the air, but I ACTUALLY knew the answer!! That was one of the poems I had memorized for money! I sat there patiently waiting for them to come around to me. My heart felt like it was about to beat out of my chest.

When it was my turn to answer I said "Under a spreading chestnut tree, the village smithy stands." The room went silent and every jaw in it dropped. I got my 50 bonus points!

The point is, had my dad not encouraged me to memorize classic poems that summer, I not only would have not known the answer, I wouldn't have even known what or who the question was talking about. But my whole life at home I have been encouraged to pick up a book, to memorize a poem, etc. My dad amazes me. He can recite numerous poems by heart. The Ride of Paul Revere being one of them... which... is no short poem. Look it up sometime.

As the years have gone by the only part of the poem I've retained by memory is
"Under a spreading chestnut-tree
The village smithy stands;
The smith, a mighty man is he,
With large and sinewy hands"

This all came flooding back to me tonight. My dad declared tonight family poem reading night. He asked us all what our favorite poems were, and he pulled them up on the internet. Then we took turns oldest to youngest, dad, mom, my two sisters, and me sitting in the designated chair and reading aloud our poem. Tonight mine was The Village Blacksmith.

Here is the poem in its entirety...

Under a spreading chestnut-tree
The village smithy stands;
The smith, a mighty man is he,
With large and sinewy hands;
And the muscles of his brawny arms
Are strong as iron bands.

His hair is crisp, and black, and long,
His face is like the tan;
His brow is wet with honest sweat,
He earns whate'er he can,
And looks the whole world in the face,
For he owes not any man.

Week in, week out, from morn till night,
You can hear his bellows blow;
You can hear him swing his heavy sledge,
With measured beat and slow,
Like a sexton ringing the village bell,
When the evening sun is low.

And children coming home from school
Look in at the open door;
They love to see the flaming forge,
And hear the bellows roar,
And catch the burning sparks that fly
Like chaff from a threshing-floor.

He goes on Sunday to the church,
And sits among his boys;
He hears the parson pray and preach,
He hears his daughter's voice,
Singing in the village choir,
And it makes his heart rejoice.

It sounds to him like her mother's voice,
Singing in Paradise!
He needs must think of her once more,
How in the grave she lies;
And with his haul, rough hand he wipes
A tear out of his eyes.

Toiling,--rejoicing,--sorrowing,
Onward through life he goes;
Each morning sees some task begin,
Each evening sees it close
Something attempted, something done,
Has earned a night's repose.

Thanks, thanks to thee, my worthy friend,
For the lesson thou hast taught!
Thus at the flaming forge of life
Our fortunes must be wrought;
Thus on its sounding anvil shaped
Each burning deed and thought.



Anyway. I wanted to share that part of my story tonight. The Village Blacksmith will always be one of my favorite poems...

...thanks to the summer when I got paid to memorize it.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Reminder

I've been sending out blog reader invites via email. You may need to check your junk mail for it.

If you are still reading my blog but haven't left me your email yet... shame on you.

Jan... I need your email!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Levi The Red Nosed Reindeer



We purposefully arranged Levi so that it would look like he has reindeer antlers coming out of his head.

(Just Kidding)

Merry Christmas anyway

(p.s. - Francie... I need your email so I can add you to the reader invites)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Private

I've decided to put my blog on invited readers only.

If you read my blog... leave me a comment with your email so I can add you to the list.

please and thank you.

in the meantime... here's a picture to tide you over...

the next Amy Matthews:

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Scenes From a Post Office

I had to go to the post office today.

For some reason Levi brought along a plastic Pirates of the Caribbean sword that Mindi got for him for this birthday. I even let him take it inside with us. Whatever.

So there we are in a line full of people crammed into this tiny post office that's inside a bank. I'm only half paying attention to Levi who's standing at my side.

Then I hear him say "Mom, do I have any boogers in my nose?"

and I look down to see him staring at me with that plastic sword shoved up his right nostril.

The whole place goes silent....

and then breaks out into a simultaneous laugh.

Four year old boys... I tell ya.

He's just keepin' it real, and that's my boy! :)

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The Pursuit of Happy-ness

I was reading today in the January 2009 Real Simple Magazine. They surveyed 2,600 women and men on their keys to happiness. Here were some of the results:

10 Things That Would Make Women Happier
1. A permanently clean home (Definitely applies to me!!!)
2. A luxury trip (yeah, it'd be nice, but my happiness wouldn't depend on it)
3. A big house (bigGER yeah... but not huge)
4. Losing ten pounds (AT LEAST. and yes... this would make me happier for sure)
5. A great body (check)
6. Time for themselves (check. check. check. check. check.)
7. A really romantic relationship (YES!)
8. Being smarter (check)
9. Saying "no" more
10. A luxury car (not on my personal top ten... but whatever)

I'm kind of surprised that money didn't make the list. Fewer bills at least.

10 Things That Would Make Men Happier:
1. A big house
2. A really romantic relationship (is anyone else surprised that this is #2 on their list??)
3. A luxury trip
4. Being smarter
5. A luxury car (Is anyone else surprised that this is so far down on the list??)
6. A better sex life (this one too. #6? really?)
7. A great body
8. A permanently clean home (hey, you could HELP clean the house fellas. I'm just sayin')
9. Losing ten pounds
10. Having a personal assistant (yeah...)

Thoughts? Opinions??

what would your top ten list look like?

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Monday, December 15, 2008

Levi's (and Audrey's) Corner #2

Please excuse my children. They DO own clothes. However... even in this negative degree weather I can not keep a shirt on Levi. And in an effort to be just like her older brother, Audrey is shirtless too. *eye roll*

On with the show.

My children would like to wish you all some holiday cheer



Saturday, December 13, 2008

Photo Shoot

I got to shoot this little cutie and his older brother today. Such cute boys!! Gonna break some hearts some day for sure.

Telling a Story (picture heavy)

The kids and I finally (emphasis on finally!) put up our little tree this week. It's a cute, small little thing. The thing is... last year we went to Lowe's and picked out a live tree, had the sweet little thang working there help us tie it to the top of our old beater car, brought it home... and then... I found myself with this 7' real tree... complete with real needles that shed... and somehow I had to get it in my house myself (while the kids watched from the sidelines). Same story when it was time to take it down. Only now... it was dead, and shedding all over the house and just as heavy going out as it was coming in. I vowed not to do that again without help. So... this year we just used an old two foot tree that I bought on sale four years ago at Hobby Lobby.

Since our tree is so small this year, we weren't able to hang all of our ornaments, just a select few. It has been a tradition at my family's house for as long as I can remember, that one of our (mine and my three siblings) presents was a new ornament. Usually the ornament had to do with something that we were "into" that year. Every year part of the fun of decorating our tree, was to pull out the ornaments and remember who's was who's and why it was special to that specific person.

When we were grown and out of the house with famlies of our own, mom gave us a box with all of our ornaments from over the years in it. So on our first Christmas away from home we've already got years worth of ornaments that actually mean something... not just plastic or glass fillers from Wal Mart.

It was always one of my favorite Christmas traditions and I have since carried on the tradition with my kids.

So, for today's blog... I'd like to share with you some of our ornaments from over the years.

I played the saxophone from sixth grade through college. A total of ten years. One year my ornament was this santa playing a saxophone. I always wondered why he was black. Hmmm. Oh well, Christmas knows no skin color...



In high school, we were the Waynesville Tigers...



I played soccer in high school...



Carrying on the tradition with my kids...

We moved back to America from England two years ago. The day after Christmas 2006. The four days before Christmas of 2006 we spent driving through Germany and Belgium going to Christmas markets. It was my parents, my two sisters, me, and my two kids, all crammed into a minivan with all of our luggage for a four day drive through France, Germany, and Belgium.... yeah... it was snug. But not something I'll ever forget. It was also Audrey's first Christmas. That year, while at a market in Belgium I got the kids these ornaments...

Levi's:



Audrey's:



just for fun... here is a picture of Audrey on Christmas Eve 2006. She's sitting on the steering wheel of the minivan as we wait in France for a ferry back to England...



This next one was Levi's first ornament. He was born in north carolina (first in flight).



It says north carolina on the bottom... see?...



we've also got a Missouri one...



These are the kid's ornament's from last year. After I took these pictures I wrote their names on them with a black paint pen. I've hung these in front of their stockings this year instead of on the tree...

Levi's:



Audrey's:



this one we got last year at Dixie Stampede in Branson where we spent new year's eve with the kids... (sorry for the fuzzy pic)...



We've got a few more... like the one I made in girl scouts in first grade. (I didn't get a picture of it). We've also got two Mizzou ornaments...





And this? This is our tree topper. The most beautiful tree topper you've ever seen. Audrey made it at Mother's Morning Out this year.



That's our little tree... our story.



and here's one of the presents under the tree. It's something Levi made for me at preschool and I'm not allowed to open it until Christmas.



The anticipation is killing me!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Sad but True

I saw this on a church's marquee today:

"Come in and pray today. Beat the Christmas rush."

Sad, but true.

Does it bother anyone else that for some people, the only times they see the inside of a church building are on Christmas and Easter??

I guess I should just be thankful that they see the inside of a church at all... (funerals and weddings excluded)

but still.

I think it's sad.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Just Released

The most exciting thing that's happened to me all day...

The Pioneer Woman released her second set of photoshop actions. Completely free! Just download them straight to whatever version of photoshop you use (doesn't work on elements) and make photos like this:



look like this:



that action is called "sunshine" and makes your subject look like they are being bathed in new morning light. I'm having so much fun with these new actions. Go get them for yourself!!!

(and then share pics!!)

Friday, December 5, 2008

Easy Enough

for anyone who might be interested...

Levi has informed me that for Christmas this year he wants "transformers. aaaaaaand... nope. that's it."

so now you know

boys are easy! (Audrey's list wasn't so short! Ha!)

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The Great Hunt '08

This picture was taken about nine hours before Audrey started puking her guts up, about 42 hours before I started puking MY guts up, and about 72 hours before Levi and John started puking their guts up.

Great mental image huh?

Keepin' it real



my new favorite picture of John:

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The Mother Letter Project



I ran across this blog with a really neat idea for Christmas this year...

A man has started a blog project called "The Mother Letters." For Christmas this year, this man and his family have decided only to give each other gifts that they have made instead of storebought "gadgets and gizmos." So, this man's idea was to get as many women as he could to write a letter... from one mother to another... and he will be giving the compiled book of letters to his wife as her Christmas gift this year. If that isn't the sweetest, most thoughtful idea a man could have come up with I don't know what is.

Anyway... go HERE to read about the Mother Letter Project, and then... email him a mother letter of your own. And then tell all of your friends to do it. Everyone who sends him a letter before Christmas will receive a copy of the compiled letters.

When I'm done with my letter I might share it here. Or I might not. we'll see.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Vomit Comet

prayers would be appreciated for my baby girl. She's been puking her guts up this afternoon. :(

(this on the heels of a raging ear infection. poor thing.)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Keeping the Zoo

Last week, Levi was the zoo keeper for preschool.

What's that mean??

It means, that for the whole week we had this at our house...



Ebony the classroom pet rabbit.

It's still alive after a whole week at our house!! =)

p.s. I don't know why Levi's front left tooth looks red in that picture, but I promise you my son does not have red teeth.

Good Samaritan

This morning I was leaving Waynesville at 6:30 a.m. to make the two hour drive back to Columbia. I decided to stop at St. Robert's McDonald's on my way out of town to grab breakfast for myself and the kids. As I'm driving up to order, I'm fishing around in my purse for my debit card and am not able to find it. So, I stop short of the sensor and continued digging around in my purse. It's important to note here that I was in the inside drive through lane. (there are two drive through lanes at this McDonald's) A man pulls up beside me in the other (outside) lane and rolls his window down, obviously trying to get my attention. So I roll my window down. He asks me if everything is ok and I said "yes thank you, I'm just looking for something." Well... he puts in his order. At this point I have emptied the contents of my purse and I still can not find my debit card, so I have decided to just drive through without ordering. The man in the mini-van starts to pull around to pay and sees that I'm getting ready to drive through without ordering. so he stops his van in front of me and sticks his head out the window. So I roll my window back down. He says to me "back up and order."

WHAT???

"back up and order. I've got your breakfast this morning."

*blinks*

he was blocking me from driving out. So I thanked him, backed up, and ordered. John had already made my coffee this morning (*swoon*), so all I had to order was a sausage mcmuffin for myself and two $1 sausage biscuits for my kids. The total was less than $5... but that man had no idea how many people I had in my vehicle or what I was going to order.

After I ordered, I pulled around and saw him telling the woman at the window that he had paid for my order. Both of our windows were still down and he stuck his head out his and yelled back to me "Stay warm today!" so I said "Thank you sir, I appreciate it very much."

God had His angels surrounding me this morning.

I'm still in awe that people like him still exist and won't soon forget it. I thank my God for people like that man this morning.

(in case you are wondering... I ended up remembering the last place I'd used my card... a gas station in Columbia... and went back this afternoon. Apparently I'd dropped my card in the parking lot, someone had seen me drop it and had taken it inside. It was waiting for me behind the counter. Thank you Lord!!!!)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Levi's Corner

My friend Sandi had a good idea to include her son in her blog....

Today's blog is coming to us from Levi's corner.

Three things Levi is thankful for:
~ Sleep (boy after my own heart!!)
~ Starfall on the computer
~ Cereal


not to be left out...

Three things Audrey is thankful for:
~ Cereal
~ Flowers
~ Huggin' Mom

Monday, November 17, 2008

A Pattern

Sis and I went to the library today while Bubby was in school.

Here are the books that I checked out. Let's see if you can find the pattern...

1. Homeschooling Methods - Seasoned Advice on Learning Styles
2. The Homeschooling Book of Lists
3. The Unschooling Handbook - How to Use The Whole World As Your Child's Classroom
4. So You're Thinking About Homeschooling - Fifteen Families Show How You Can Do It.
(a Focus on The Family book)
5. Homeschooling 101 - The Essential Handbook
6. The A to Z Guide to Homeschool Field Trips

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Melt

Melt (v.): What your heart does when your four year old son holds the car door open for his two year old little sister so that she can climb in first; What your heart does when your two year old daughter turns to her older brother and says "dank you, Bubby!" after he holds the car door open for her.

My kids are amazing.

Halloween this year was a success. I won't post any pics of all the candy... you might go into a sugar coma just looking at it all!! I'll just tell you that Levi was a police officer, Audrey was a girl dragon, and it was a fun night.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Brogging

I've made up a new word. When you blog... and you're bragging... it should be called "brogging". I'm brogging tonight.

The other day my mom reminded me that I still have not posted a picture of my new cut and color. Well... this picture was taken last night... so I figured I'd post it here. It shows the color well... but not so much the cut.



HOWEVER... what it also shows... is the dozen calla lillies that John got me yesterday.

Callas are my favorite flower.

Thank you, John! I love them

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Election Day 2008



This morning, as I was on my way to the polls to vote, with both of my young children in the car with me... I was telling them where we were going, what I was going to do, and how important it was.

So, we get to the voting place, and I'm handed my ballot. I choose a corner booth since I've got both kids with me. And Levi says "I want to vote, mom"

I figured it was history in the making... so I let Levi help me vote. He sat on my lap, held the pen, and blackened in the oval that I told him to for president.

As we were leaving we all got "I voted" stickers.

I want my children to know how important today is

He was pretty proud of himself. And I had to share.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Memory Lane

Mary Had a Lamb


In this video, Levi was the same age that Audrey is now.

*weeps*

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Pumpkin Patch Pictures P-P-P

As promised...
here are some pictures from the pumpkin patch/hayride that Levi's preschool went on last Friday.

Audrey, bundled up and ready for the hayride. (Levi had already ditched me and was at the front of the wagon with his friends. LOL):



Oh, Look who decided to join us down here at the back of the wagon!



Levi got to shuck corn on the hayride. It was neat. The kids also got to do a corn maze.



Ta-Da!!



Levi & His treasure:



Audrey and her pumpkin:



Jason and Audrey:

Monday, October 27, 2008

Justin

I had a senior photo shoot Saturday morning.

Here is one of my faves from the shoot. I love it because their school colors are Red... they are the cardinals. So, this bright red wall was perfect.



sorry ladies... he's taken.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A Sweet Surprise

This morning I woke up to breakfast in bed.

Jason had gotten up, closed the door to the room I was sleeping in so that my kids being awake wouldn't wake me up, fixed Levi a waffle for breakfast, then fried me an egg, put it on a piece of toast, and brought it to me in bed with a glass of juice.

*insert "awwww" here*

THEN....

his dad knows that I love coffee, and he knew that I was at Jason's house today, so on his way back home from town, he stopped by with a coffee for me.

*wild applause*

just had to share.

we were driving back to Jason's house tonight in the dark, and we counted TEN deer in his fields. one clearly had antlers.

*gets ready for rifle season*

Becky's gettin' a deer this year ya'll !!!!

Monday, October 20, 2008

Pumpkin Patch



Levi's preschool went to the pumpkin patch this morning. Audrey and Jason and I tagged along.

Gotta run... pictures in a few days.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Beauty Is In The Eye of The Beholder

Question: What do you do when you've dropped both kids off at their schools on a Friday morning, and you find yourself at the mall ALL BY YOURSELF with three hours to kill, but you're there early and the only things open are coffee shops and hair salons?

Answer: You get your hair did!!

Or I do anyway. Or did. Whatever.

That's right folks, for the first time in OVER A YEAR, I stepped foot in a hair salon. I'm still keeping the long hair, so I didn't go short. I just got the dead ends trimmed off and got sexy (did I just say sexy on my blog??) layers and texture put in it. Then... I went dark!!!!!!!!!! Think dark espresso bean.... dark. not quite black. I'm in love with it. I usually don't trust just anyone with my hair... but the girl was young and hip and had a nose ring... so for two hours I read trash magazines and let her do what she wanted with my hair. I love it. Did I mention I LOVE it??

Pictures coming soon.

Skip ahead a few hours. I've picked the kids up from their schools and have put Audrey down for her afternoon nap. Or.... at least I THOUGHT she was napping.

HOWEVER...

not to be out-done by mom's new look, Audrey had found a green marker, and decided to give herself a new look of her own.

Just in time for Halloween, I give you.... Audrey's Incredible Hulk transformation...





If you think THAT'S pretty... check out what she did to her doll...



I'm sending this girl to cosmetology school!!!

Or not.

Oi.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Knock Knock, McFly!

Audrey is in that age where she is constantly, and I mean cooooonnnnnssstttannntly saying "mom" a million times a day. She's ALWAYS needing something. Only... half the time, she doesn't even need anything. A lot of times it goes like this...

Audrey: "Mom?"
Me: "what Audrey?"
Audrey: "nufthin" (nothin')

or

Audrey: "Mom!"
Me: "yes Audrey?"
Audrey: "nevermind"

sometimes, when she's said "mom" at least a million times that day, I tend to start ignoring her. Well.... here is a conversation that took place this morning at breakfast. I was busy reviewing Levi's homework and getting Audrey's lunch ready for both of them to go to school and Audrey is sitting there saying "mom. mom. mommy. MOM??"

and I'm ignoring her.

when all of a sudden I hear her say "MOM? Knock Knock, MOM!"

*blinks*

did my two year old child just say knock knock to me??

what is this world coming to?

"yes, Audrey?"

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Poop

When you help work cattle, you're going to get manure on your pants. I'm just sayin'

p.s. - manure is poop. Had to explain that one to my four year old.

these are my jeans after helping the other day:

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

A Different Type of Cuisine

Levi: "I Want to eat a bat. Mom... can you cook a bat?"
Me: "a bat??"
Levi: "Yeah, cause I want to eat a bat."
Me: "I don't think I can cook a bat. That'd be gross."
Levi: "Well, I want to eat one."

Monday, September 29, 2008

More Firsts...

The kids and I had a fun weekend. We spent it in the country. I did a lot of firsts (for me) this weekend... including:
~ First time playing "Ghost In The Graveyard" (hide and seek in the dark.... Fun!!!!!!!)
~ First time ever playing tag on rows of hay bales.... the big round ones, not the square kind. (note to self: self... you are not 18 anymore. Jump on hay bales like a child and you WILL be sore the next day... even though it was very worth it.)
~ First time attending a tractor pull.

that's our weekend re-cap.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Happy Early Birthday To Me!!



Yesterday, after I'd just dropped Levi off at preschool, my phone rang. I looked at it and it was a number I didn't recognize so I almost didn't answer it.... but boy am I glad I did!!

It was my employer, calling to tell me that she had completely forgotten that they had tickets to last night's Cardinals game, only... they are in Michigan and couldn't use the tickets. So... if I would go to the game, they were mine.

HECK YES!!!

Anyone who knows me knows that I'm a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl. You look up "random" or "spontaneous" in the dictionary... and there will very likely be a picture of me next to the word.

All of that to say... I didn't already have plans... so last night we caught the Cardinals vs. Arizona Diamondbacks game in St. Louis.

There were six free tickets. Five of us ended up going. Me, both of my kids, and three of our friends. (I know you're doing the math... but Audrey didn't have to have a ticket to get in. I almost said she got in free.... but, well... we ALL got in free. free to us anyway. LOL. YIPPEE) The parking was even free. All I had to buy was gas there and back. I was treated to supper in St. Louis.

Our seats were awesome front row seats in the Casiono Queen section, which is like a party deck.

It was an awesome night for a baseball game. Everything from the weather, to the company, to the guy after the game standing on the corner serenading us on his saxophone with "My Favorite Things" from The Sound of Music. It could only have been made better if we'd won. :(

What my employer doesn't know... is that my birthday is in a week and a half. So... this kicks off my birthday week perfectly. Happy Early Birthday to Me!!!

This is Levi yelling "GO Cardinals!!!" (this was either of my kids first pro baseball game, by the way.):

Monday, September 15, 2008

My Princess



My baby girl princess was sick today and continues to run a fever tonight.

This morning she asked me to hold her, then crawled up in my lap in the rocking chair and fell asleep.

:(

please pray with me that she's back to her normal goofy self soon.

Thank you.

It's a Mystery To Me

I'm sitting here eating raw cookie dough.... and drinking a DIET Dr. Pepper.

what's the point?? haha.

Something else I want to know...

who in their right mind would name a town Ionia??

"I own ya" ?????

anyway... that's what I'm thinking tonight.

Deep thoughts by Becky. stay tuned for next months edition

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Backwards Day

We were on our way home tonight and Levi pipes up from the backseat "mom, when we get home can we eat?" I told him that was the plan and asked him what he would like for supper tonight. His answer? "Scrambled eggs!"

So... we are having breakfast for supper tonight. This day has been backwards enough as it is... so why not?

Did I mention that my dad was here two weekends ago? And did I mention that before he left town he took us to HyVee and bought us a ton of groceries? (maybe literally!!)

so... for supper tonight we had scrambled eggs and fried ham (courtesy of the ham that dad bought us.) I also popped some whole wheat bagels in the toaster and smothered them with cream cheese.

And...

since I knew beforehand what we'd be having for supper... I may or my not have driven through starbucks for a mocha.

Ok... so I did.

It's a good rainy evening for one.

I use the term "good" loosely

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Stepping Up

Dear Blog Readers,
Every so often on my blog, I really lay my heart out on the line...
... tonight, my friends and family... is one of those blog posts for me. Since I'm allowing myself to be so vulnerable, I ask that you respect that by at least signing your name to this post if you read it. You don't have to say anything... just let me know that you were here. If you don't know how to leave your name on here... shoot me an email. I'd like to know who's getting to see into the depths of my heart tonight. Thank you.
Becky

And so...
we've started another semester at Take T.W.O., the bible study here in town that I attend on Thursday mornings. This is my fourth semester at Take T.W.O and this semester could not have come soon enough. The irony of this semester is this...

while reading through the classes being offered this semester, this is how it went:

~Bad Girls of The Bible... which I've already done as a bible study a few years ago with a group of women from my home congregation here.
~ Marriage Uncensored... I would bet it's pretty obvious why I'm not in this class. right?
~ Proactive Parenting... I took this class two semesters ago. Although truth be told, I could use to take it again.
~ Invitation to solitude and Silence... I took this class last semester.
and...
~ Stepping Up, A Journey Through The Psalms of Ascent... A Beth Moore study.

now, I do love Beth Moore and would have willingly taken her class anyway... but it looks to me like I had no other choice, right? Funny how God works that way. He didn't ASK me to take this class... he pretty much forced me too.

Ok God... I'm listening.

Here's where I get vulnerable...

*deep breath in*

Lately I've been in a pretty big funk. I haven't felt like myself at all, and I've been letting a lot of people down. Starting with my relationship with others, my relationship with my children, my relationship with myself, and my relationship with Christ. I know that I am called to be the bride of Christ, and I have to say... I haven't been much of a bride lately. I haven't been keeping the house tidy for Him. I haven't been taking care of His children the way He calls me to. I haven't been making myself look very presentable for Him. I haven't been spending much quality time with Him. you get my drift, right? Pretty crappy bride.

The thing is... I feel this huge sense of being desperately overwhelmed. This single mom stuff.... Let me tell you guys... it's tough. It's tough physically, it's tough emotionally, it's tough mentally, and it's tough spiritually. And, for the most part, I think that I try to keep a pretty good handle on it... or at least I give the impression that I've got a handle on it... but here lately it's been a struggle. And it's becoming obvious to those closest to me. My friends are starting to call me out. By the way... I LOVE that I have friends that will do that with me... but it still sucks. Putting one foot in front of the other feels monumental.

Which is why I also think it's ironic that the bible study is called Stepping Up.

Yesterday when I was having one of my moments where I didn't want to get out of bed, I asked Audrey if she could cuddle with me. She climbed up into my bed and I asked her what she'd like to talk about. I kid you not... her answer was "God." I said "you want to talk about God??" and she goes "yeah." So I asked her "what did God make?" and she said to me "flowers." I said "you know what else God made? God made you!... and He gave you to ME" There I was, snuggled in bed with the most beautiful blond headed blue eyed little girl you'd ever see in your life... the kind of child that a lot of women who can't conceive desperately pray for... yet God has given her to ME. ME!!!!

*chokes back the tears*

anyway...

The good news is... I realize that I'm letting people down. That I'm in a funk. The bad news is, I can't seem to pull out of it.

I'm hoping that this bible study will help.

In the introductory chapter for the study, Beth writes this:

"You and I have places to go. People to meet. Dragons to slay. Foes to defeat. If God had already taken us everywhere he intended, we'd be at His glorious feet by now. That you and I are still here drawing terrestrial breaths tells us that God still has appointments for us."

The scary part to me is that... when we seek to know God better, Satan is always there trying to bring us down. trying to thwart us. So... in this season of mine, I will have to work DOUBLY hard to push past satan. I'm ready, but I can't honestly say i'm trying yet.

*sigh*

writing all of this is exhausting

*whew*

I just wanted you all to be aware I guess. no masks.

I found this video on YouTube. I don't know what church this is... but it's a good intro video of the Beth Moore study.



I'm going to end this for now... I have an appointment with God...

I'm a weary traveler with tired feet... taking the next step.

"Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on the pilgrimage." -Psalm 84:5

Friday, September 5, 2008

7 Degrees



I forgot to mention.... a cool fact about my new truck...

Chip Foose, the host of TLC's Overhaulin' has signed the passenger side airbag. Kinda cool huh? I'm sure some Chip Foose fan out there would be jealous.

Don't hate, congratulate.

LOL

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Firsts



Yesterday was my big boy's last first day of preschool before kindergarten next year. Where have four and a half years gone???

I missed my boy while it was just me and sis, but in all honesty... I know that Levi and I were both desperately ready for some time apart, and that this will be a good thing for us this year. It went very well.

Audrey however... she was missing her bubby. She kept asking me "where bubby is??" and couldn't stop hugging on him after we'd picked him up. Audrey getting some alone time with me will be good for both of us too though. I'm really looking forward to this. I'm pumped about the awesome school that Levi is in. They do soooo many neat things. I'm sure I'll be writing about it on here a lot.

here are some (okay, a lot) of pictures from yesterday. Did you expect anything different from ME?? Ha!

hugs from sis:


backpack hanging in cubby:


making new friends:


the big scary door going into the classroom:


the hugs from Audrey after we picked bubby up and celebrated the day with lunch out:





Levi,
I'm so excited for you and the amazing things you'll be doing and learning this year. It's been awesome watching you grow these last four years at home with me, and now I hand you over three days a week to the care of christian teachers who will hopefully only boost that growth. You seem SO big to me, and yet I love that you still need help tying your shoes. I love that you still call Zucchinis "bikinis". I love that you still call pickles "cucumbers". I love that you still call hospitals "hostables", and I love that you still need a hug for a good night's sleep. Levi, I've prayed my little heart out that this will be a great school year for you. I can't wait to see how much you grow this year.
Love, Mama
p.s.-- you let me know the first girl who falls for those dimples, Lord help us. I'll clobber her.
Love, Mama. =D